Lean On Me.

Everyone seems to have that one person you can lean on when things get tough. That person who always has a kind word to say, and never judges you no matter what you did.

I had a friend like that once, and then we drifted apart and I chose a new friend who I trusted with EVERYTHING, but I now know that was a mistake.

Now that Karlin is gone, Evan and I are best friends again. He was my first real friend, and he's stuck with me through everything. After all the times I've yelled at him, insulted him, and been a straight-up bitch, he never gave up on me.

I'll absolutely never forget that. I always thought that I was the only person I could trust with my life, my secrets, and my hopes, but now I know that sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what; maybe you’ll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, but there is also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you, sometimes better than you know yourself, is the same person who's been standing beside you all along.

And yes, I did steal that from Bride Wars(;

Already Gone.

Mom: "Well this is going to be your last weekend at home, and I want you to enjoy it."

And boy, am I ever glad it will be. I've got plans for this summer, and staying in this piece of shit town isn't one of them. Let's see.... I'm going to North Carolina, Seattle, and Dallas. And my sister is coming in from Dallas to stay for a month.

I'll get to go to the gym every day and I'll get to go to the fights every weekend.

I'll make new friends this summer, and I'll learn more about life in one day in Manchester than I could ever learn in ten years in A-ville.

We're going out on the lake, having cook outs, and I'm going to Covington to see the family some. Also, Chelsey is coming up from Mississippi to see me and I haven't seen her since Christmas.

The only thing that could make this summer better is if I got to see Tyler graduate. And I think he understands why I can't be there.

But even if I do miss it, there's all summer for me to see my brother before he leaves.

Summer 2010 is looking pretty damn good. ♥

Sometimes.

Sometimes the only way to overcome a circumstance is some one giving some one else a fighting chance.

Everyone needs something to hope for. Every little girl deserves to feel beautiful every day. But sadly, that rarely ever happens.

Every little girl should have a dream that comes true.

Every girl should be able to do whatever she wants to in her life.

Whether she wants to be a lawyer, a model, a vet, or just a stay-at-home mom.

They all deserve some one who loves them and everything about them, even those little flaws every one else seems to hate.

Some girls have things just handed to them, but others have to fight for what they want and work hard to get it. And those are the girls who are often overlooked.

Every girl is beautiful in their own way, whether they realize it or not.

Every girl has the power to be some one important.

But mostly, every girl just needs some one to stand behind them and catch them when they fall and say, "It's okay. I love you anyway."

But that doesn't happen, because guys don't get it.

This Time Is Over.

My brother is graduating high school! It seems like yesterday that he was just my wittle big brother. He taught me to swim, ride a bike, and he also tried to kill me several times.

He pushed me down a well (and pulled me out... of course, the heroic pulling Anni out of the well part is the only part people remember).

He's helped me with homework.

He's been the best big brother I could ever ask for. And I'm not ready for him to leave. I don't see him enough now, much less when he goes to college):

This time is over, it's time to start again.

No matter what happens, you'll always be my big brother, and I'll always love you. ♥

Things I Have Learned.... From Experience.

Do not stick a knife into a light socket. Bad idea.

Look both ways before crossing the street.

Do not cuss in front of your preacher... apparently it's a sin.

A tennis racket will not help you walk on water.

Apparently you can be arrested for jumping off a bridge into the river.

Parents do not like having to pick you up from jail.

The glass in windows does not stop baseballs hit by ceiling fans.

Ceiling fans can hit baseballs a long way.

The spin cycle on the dryer makes cats dizzy.

Old ladies sometimes carry purses filled with rocks.

They will use them. ^^^

Throwing a cat in water will not teach it to swim. It will only piss it off.

When sewing an apron, make sure your sleeve is not in the way otherwise you will sew yourself to the apron.

If some one says they are going to throw up... they usually mean it.

Everything you need to learn from school you learn in kindergarten through second grade.

Play nice with the other kids. (Until the other kid gets cocky, then you kick the other kid's ass).

Just because you throw a ball in the air and don't see it come down does not mean it won't land on your head.

Parents are NOT always right.

The gas pedal is on the right and the break is on the left- ALWAYS ON THE LEFT.

Disney movies can cause deep thinking late at night.

They can also cause nightmares... depending on the movie.

A king-sized waterbed holds enough water to fill a two-thousand-square-foot house four inches deep.

Whoever said to love thy neighbor never had to live next to a BOBKITTEN.

Letting two puppies loose in Wal-Mart = very bad idea.

Most important thing I have learned:

Live your life, don't regret doing crazy things, but next time think twice... and do it anyways.

Always Remember to...

Smile at strangers on the street.

Dance when no one's around.

Love with all your heart.

Believe in promises.

Play like a kid.

Dream of the future.

Write to live.

Inspire others and yourself.

Try everything once.

Work hard.

Trust your heart.

Wish on shooting starts.

Listen to the voice in your head.

Cherish all the memories.

Learn something new every day.

Sing your heart out.

Care about yourself.

Whisper late at night.

Wonder about the mysteries of life.

Pray every night.

Hope for the best.

Imagine how things could be different.

Share your life stories.

Laugh when you want to cry.

Know that things could always be worse. ♥

Random.

1. I think Michael Phelps is one of the best looking men on the planet.

2. I do not have my learner's permit.

3. I love writing. It's the best. ♥

4. I leave the water running when I brush my teeth.

5. I hate Oreos.

6. I only eat celery to take the sting of spicy food.

7. I hate peanut butter.

8. I have six brothers and two sisters.

9. I was born one month early. I wasn't due until 30 January of 1995.

10. My mom and I hate each other.

11. I hate slow drivers.

12. I'm a germ freak.

13. My class ring has the March birthstone in it, even though my birthday is in December.

14. I do not have a hero. Sorry.

15. My seven year old cousin knew how to spell Cincinnati before I did.

16. I've had 3 dogs in my lifetime, and they are all now dead.

17. I have a boyfriend. And he's the cutest.

18. I don't usually pay attention in church. I'ma rebel. XD Ha.

19. My favorite movie is My Cousin Vinny.

20. Evan and Robert are my best friends.

21. I tend to push the "F You" button when people call me.

22. I talk fast.

23. I'm not a public speaker.

24. I can't cook worth a shit.

25. I actually love to get dressed up.

26. I have been to the beach 3 times.

27. I buried a kitten alive when I was six.

28. I don't want kids, but I'll probably end up with them anyways.

29. I don't eat broken cookies.

30. My nails are really long because I hate cutting them. It feels weird.

31. Babies are the cutest. ♥

32. My favorite song is "Bless the Broken Road" by Rascal Flatts.

33. My favorite book is Redeeming Love.

34. Cats are better than dogs.

35. My favorite flower is a daisy.

36. Do not buy me flowers ^^^ I suck at keeping them alive. They always die. Sorry.

37. I'm a cheerleader.

38. White tigers are very pretty(:

39. My best friend turned out to be a lying, backstabbing whore. Who knew?

40. I think I'm going to be a Republican.

41. I don't like Obama. At all.

42. A woman should not be president. Sorry, Sarah.

43. I've been arrested.... more than once.

44. I've done some pretty crazy shit back in the day.

45. The teenage versions Ralph Macchio, Jonathan Taylor Thomas, and Jeff East are damn sexy. No doubt.

46. The prettiest celebrity is Jennifer Love Hewitt.

47. I've been told I look like Demi Lovato... I don't see it.

48. Avery Smith looks EXACTLY like me. People swear up and down he's my son, but he's not.

49. Anni Smith has the same name as me(:

50. I say things out loud that most people think in their heads.

51. I hate it when people ask me if I'm sure about something.

52. I probably cuss way too much.

53. I'm an insomniac.

54. Depending on who you are, I may or may not text you back. :D

55. I'm going to be an aunt soon. I feel old. /:

56. My mom's name is Amber & my dad's is Chuck.

57. I am always right(:

58. I usually make good grades.

59. I am getting tired of thinking of random shit about me.

60. Bye bye now.

It's the little things.

That mean the most...

Skies full of stars.

Waves crashing on the shore.

The butterflies when he says "I love you."

Cheering with a smile on my face.

The feeling I get when I write.

Chasing time as it passes by.

Light that erases the dark.

Getting a hug from my best friend on a bad day and hearing: "It's gonna be okay."

Wearing a hoodie on days when you feel like crap.

Hunter's "Good morning, have a good day, love you." text messages.

The peaceful feeling you get when you rock a baby to sleep at three in the morning.

Smiling when you want to cry.

Knowing that courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes it's the little voice inside you when you go to bed at night that says: "It's okay... I'll try again tomorrow."

♥